* Returning home from dinner out and a bookstore browse on Saturday night, dh & I took a detour home to check out the Christmas lights in our neighbourhood. We also went slightly further afield: there is a street about a mile away that is notorious for its Clark Griswold/Christmas Vacation-type light displays, and somehow we've lived here for almost 25 years and never checked it out. It wasn't quite the Griswolds, but it was worth the trip. ;)
* Dh & I went to see "The Theory of Everything" this weekend (about Stephen Hawking & his first wife). Potential spoiler alert: At the very end of the movie, Stephen & Jane watch as their three beautiful children frolic together, and (in his actual mechanical voice) Hawking says, "Look what we made." I burst into tears -- because those were the exact words that were running through my head as I gazed in both wonder & sorrow on the still, cold form of my tiny stillborn daughter 16 years ago. Stephen Hawking, with all his health & mobility issues, still managed to create three children and is now a grandfather. Whereas I... :(
* Nevertheless, I look around my cozy house -- at the Christmas tree, all lit up -- at dh on the couch, absorbed in his laptop -- and I think: I may not have (living) children. I will never have grandchildren. But I am a very lucky girl, just the same.
You can find more of this week's #MicroblogMondays posts here.
I'm glad you are able to do some things that you haven't been able to enjoy in years past. It's amazing how all consuming work can be. A silver lining to unexpected early retirement?
ReplyDeleteYou have me in tears about the connection you have with Stephen Hawking. I wish I had words of comfort. What I will say is that I've thinking of you and holding you close in my heart.
Everything that Cristy said. Sending hugs. And glad you're a very lucky girl, just the same.
ReplyDeleteCatching up with old friends sounds like so much fun, particularly since you're getting to do things that you have been previously unable to do! Driving around to look at Christmas lights is one of my favorite pastimes! So glad that you go to go see an over the top lights display!
ReplyDeleteI think I'll wait until the Steven Hawking movie comes out on Blu Ray or On Demand so I can watch it and cry in the comfort of my own home.
You are a very lucky girl and I'm glad that you get to enjoy the holiday season this year!
I want to see the Theory of Everything very badly though I know I'm going to pause now when I hear that line.
ReplyDeleteI feel you regarding your Theory of Everything moment. Although IF has made me more empathetic to the struggles of others on one level.....on other levels.....not so much. I couldn't even begin to count the numerous times when I turn to my husband in the middle of some story on TV about overcoming life's obstacles and losses and say "Yeah, but they got to have kids...." And thanks for the alert - I don't think I could have taken that scene and those words this year.
ReplyDeleteSending (((HUGS)) regarding the tears. I'm glad that now you have time to do many things with friends. :-) And love your last sentence. <3
ReplyDeleteBeautiful last line of this post! I think that would make me cry too! I too am working to focus on what I DO have right now as I'm not a big December fan. It can be a hard time of year, but I definitely try to think on how full my life really is.
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