Showing posts with label I hate February. Show all posts
Showing posts with label I hate February. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 11, 2026

What's saving my life right now

I've been quiet here lately. Tomorrow is 7 weeks since my mother died, and it's almost 4 weeks since we (finally) returned home from Manitoba -- and I still feel like I'm trying to get a handle on things (and not quite succeeding, with emails and notifications and to-do lists piling up).  Aside from a few book reviews, I've been finding it hard to find things to write about here, much less the motivation to actually get them down on screen.   

It's not just my mom that I'm grieving, too. I lost six people my age or younger last year -- friends, cousins, classmates. Today would have been my friend R.'s 68th birthday. Friday, my cousin would have turned 66. Both of them died unexpectedly in November, and sometimes I find it harder to believe that they're both gone than that Mom's gone. (Mom was 84, after all.)  

Beyond grief, part of my malaise, I think, is just... February.  February has long been my least favourite month of the year -- and not much has happened so far to make me change my mind -- I've had a severe case of the midwinter blahs. We've had a lot of snow this winter, and we just went through a stretch of 23 consecutive days of sub-zero temperatures (the record was 40+, back in 1976) -- that's zero degrees Celsius, by the way, i.e., below freezing. (We woke up a couple of mornings last week to windchills in the -30C to -35C range and I thought I was back in Manitoba, lol.) 

The state of the world, as reflected in the nightly news, is depressing. (And not all because of the Orange One either... Case in point:  we just had a rare school shooting yesterday, in a small town in northern British Columbia.)  

So I was grateful to see Modern Mrs. Darcy's annual post last week, in which she asks readers "what's saving your life right now?" and lists some of the things that are saving hers.  It's a great yearly reminder at a tough time of year to look for the silver linings, the "glimmers" that remind us that for every winter, there is also a spring.  (Eventually...!)  :)  

Without consulting my past posts on this topic... here are a couple of my current lifesavers right now:  

  • Heated car seats!  lol  (We've been using them a lot lately when we've been out!)  
  • Our second bathroom. It often comes in handy ;)  but the reason I've included it here is that we've been using it to shower, ever since we got back from Manitoba.  The spray in our master ensuite shower has been both lukewarm and rather weak, ever since it was "fixed" last fall -- and our building's recent boiler issues haven't helped matters (and we've been procrastinating on calling the plumber to come look at it). It's a bit of a pain (the tub/shower is not as easy to get in & out of as our walk-in shower cubicle, obviously), but having a consistently strong, WARM spray has been very nice. :)  (We bought a no-slip bathmat for the tub, and there have been no slips while getting in or out since then.) 
  • Spending time with the great-niblings. Always a day brightener. :) 
  • Watching the Winter Olympics from Milan-Cortina (the figure skating in particular)(another reason why I haven't been here much...!). 
    • Watching Piper Gilles & Paul Poirier win bronze in the ice dance final with their exquisite "Vincent (Starry, Starry Night)" program. :)  
  • This cropped henley sweatshirt from American Eagle. :)  I bought one on sale in light blue and it's so soft & cuddly that I bought another one in dark/navy blue. :)  I've been wearing one or the other constantly (especially during this frigid weather...!). 
  • A gift card that one of my best friends from high school sent me for my recent 65th birthday. She lost both her parents a few years back, one after the other, and then her (adult) daughter in a car accident, so she knows something about grief. The card was for a (relatively) new brunch restaurant chain, with two outlets nearby, and we used the card last Friday. The ambience was lovely, the service was friendly and prompt, and the food was hot and good, with generous portions.  We will be back.  
  • Starting a new D.E. Stevenson novel -- "The Four Graces" -- which I've read before, but this is one of my favourites of hers that I've read to date -- like a warm hug and a cup of tea. (A good cup of tea also being a lifesaver!)   
What's brightening your life right now? 

(Past "saving your life" posts here.)  

Friday, March 1, 2024

Right now

Right now...* 

*(an occasional (mostly monthly) meme, alternating from time to time with "The Current"). (Explanation of how this started & my inspirations in my first "Right now" post, here. Also my first "The Current" post, here.)

(This month is a slightly abbreviated version, as I honestly couldn't think of something to write about for several of my usual categories...!) 

February was, as usual, not my favourite month. :(  There wasn't anything really bad about it, but for a short month -- even with an extra day tacked on for leap year -- it sure felt long.  :(  

Pandemic diary/update: February was month #47 (soon to be FOUR YEARS...!) since the COVID-19 pandemic began -- and people around us still getting sick, many of them for the first time. :(  Wremain covid-free (knocking wood, loudly...), and continue to mask in stores and most other public places, especially where there are a lot of people. 

Among other things this month, we: 
  • Saw Little Great-Nephew at his grandparents' house on Feb. 5th, 7th and 20th. (On all three occasions, he wasn't feeling well and was running a slight temperature (not covid), so his parents kept him out of school and with his grandparents while they were working.) 
  • Shopped at Reitmans & Laura (women's clothing) as well as Carters/Oskosh (children's clothing) and Shoppers Drug Mart, on Feb. 6th;  and Canadian Tire, Chapters (bookstore), Reitmans and Carters (again) on Feb. 21st. 
  • Spent the morning of Feb. 15th at the mall, including lunch in the food court (unmasked, obviously), and then a few hours in the afternoon at Younger Nephew's nearby townhouse (along with BIL & SIL), being royally entertained by Little Great-Niece. :)  
  • Made the trip to our family doctor's office in our old community on Feb. 22nd -- he was booked solid, but I was able to see another doctor in the practice about the large red, somewhat itchy patch (eczema?) on my left cheek, and get a prescription (stopped off at the drugstore to have it filled, en route home). (See also: "Buying," below.).
  • Returned to our old community on Saturday, Feb. 24th, for haircuts. The salon we go to has merged operations with another salon across the street and moved over there. Normally, we try to get the first available appointment with our regular stylist on Friday morning, and I was aiming for March 1st, six weeks after our last haircuts -- but she was booked solid then -- and Little Great-Niece's first birthday party is on Saturday, March 2nd.  I didn't think I could last until the week after that -- so we wound up going on Saturday afternoon, Feb. 24th. It was very busy in there, and a smaller space than the previous location. 
    • Normally I would have worn a mask in this case -- but I've found that masks really irritate the itchy red patch on my left cheek. Ten minutes in & out of  a store, okay, but an hour in a salon? I decided to take the risk and went maskless.  (Knocking wood...!) 

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Also right now:  

Reading: I finished 2 books in February (reviewed on this blog, as well as Goodreads & StoryGraph, & tagged "2024 books").  (I've been reading a lot of PAGES, but not necessarily finishing many books...! See my "Current reads" list, directly below...!)  
This brings me to 6 books read so far in 2024, 13% of my 2024 Goodreads Reading Challenge goal of 45 books.  I am currently 1 book behind my goal.  :( 

Current read(s): 
Coming up: Most of my book groups have their next reads plotted out for a few months in advance -- and listing them here helps me keep track of what I should be reading next. ;)  
  • For the Notes from Three Pines (Louise Penny mysteries) Readalong: The last discussion was for book #3, "The Cruellest Month," posted June 7th -- no further posts/books since then.  I've continued dipping into the series on my own, between other book club obligations. Book #6, "Bury Your Dead," is the next one on my list! 
A few recently purchased titles (mostly in digital format, mostly discounted ($5-10 or less) or purchased with points): 

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Watching
ListeningTo Heardle Decades: Stats as of  Feb. 29th:   
  • Heardle 60s:  76.6% (393/513, 169 on first guess), down just slightly from last month. Max. streak: 15.
  • Heardle 70s:  82.5% (212/257, 118 on the first guess), same as last month. Max. streak: 18. 
  • Heardle 80s: 43.4% (56/129,  24 on the first guess), down from last month. Max. streak: 4. 
  • Heardle 90s: 29.2% (71/243, 14 on the first guess), down from last month. Max. streak: 4. 

Eating/Drinking:  Takeout dinners included McDonalds, chicken souvlaki on a pita, teriyaki chicken rice bowls from the supermarket takeout, and cutlet sandwiches from California Sandwiches (veal with tomato sauce for dh, chicken for me). 

I dusted off my Mom's meatloaf recipe, which I hadn't used in quite a while, and made mini-meatloaves in muffin tins, topped with a tangy Dijon mustard/brown sugar glaze, and served with garlic mashed potatoes and veggies. There were leftovers to put in the freezer for a couple of future dinners, too. Yum!  

We tried a quinoa broccoli salad recipe (gift link) that I found in the New York Times Cooking section -- similar to another quinoa salad we tried before Christmas, that we first had at dh's cousin's house -- and we both really enjoyed it, for one dinner and a couple of lunches too. :)  We used a pouch of President's Choice microwavable quinoa (instead of cooking from scratch), pre-shredded cheddar from a bag, Craisins, and we didn't toast the pecans.  Next time, I would probably chop the broccoli and apple into smaller pieces (dh did the chopping this time around), and I might make & add a little more of the dressing -- loved the tangy-ness! 

Buying (besides books, lol):  
  • Presents for Little Great-Niece & Little Great-Nephew, for Valentine's Day, Easter, and Little Great-Niece's 1st birthday (which was Feb. 27th -- party coming up this weekend!). 
  • A small jar of Clinique Redness Solutions cream to try (ordered online), to help combat the rosacea and eczema on my face that I've been experiencing lately (likely the result of the very dry air in our condo). :(   It has seemed to help a little. 
  • A new filter for our Dyson air purifier/humidifier. We bought this unit in October 2022 and the filter hasn't been replaced yet;  it's now down to 13% capacity, so I figured it was time to get a replacement to have on hand...!  
Wearing: It's been chilly inside as well as outside these past few days (and on & off during the month) -- so long sleeved shirts under a cardigan, socks and slippers have been a must!  

Enjoying:  Being cozy at home when it's chilly and/or snowy or rainy outside. (Albeit sometimes I do go a little stir-crazy...!) 

Noticing:  Lately, it's been staying SLIGHTLY lighter, longer/later. Progress??  

Trying:  Metamucil gummies (!). (Am I old or what??)  At my checkup last fall, my family doctor noted that my cholesterol levels have been gradually rising for the past couple of years. (Uh oh.) It's not at the point where I need medication, yet, but he recommended exercise (sigh...), and increasing my fibre intake. "Try Metamucil," he suggested.  I probably made a face when he said that. My mother has used Metamucil powder in a glass of water for years, for more, ahem, traditional reasons. ;)  I always thought it looked completely disgusting. 

But then I saw an ad for Metamucil gummies, and thought I might be able to handle those. So I've been giving them a try -- and they actually taste pretty good (they're orange flavoured).  ;)  The maximum suggested dosage is up to three gummies, three times a day, with plenty of fluids. I started out with just one and have been gradually increasing the dosage. They advise taking them at least two hours before or two hours after any other medication. I take a blood pressure pill in the morning, and a thyroid pill in the late afternoon/early evening, which makes for some tricky logistics...! I probably won't ever get to the maximum dosage -- and I had to stop taking them temporarily this past week, when my doctor put me on a course of antibiotics to combat the inflammation/eczema on my cheek -- but until that point, I'd worked myself up to two before lunch and one in the evening. It remains to be seen whether they're helping my cholesterol levels...!  

Appreciating:  The sun, when it does shine!  

Wanting: Oddly, I've been wishing there was more snow!  We've had hardly any so far this winter -- and I know, it's not over yet...!  Some people are perfectly happy with the milder winter -- and yes, it's easier for me to wish for snow when I (or dh!) don't have to shovel it!  But this is Canada, it's winter, and this is NOT NORMAL.  :(   (The lack of moisture is also not good for the crops, as any farmer will tell you.)  As I mentioned in this recent post, I've seen several articles recently on this theme -- like this one, and this one -- and there is a real sense of grief and loss developing -- mourning for a vanishing way of life that the children of the future won't get to experience. :(   

Prioritizing:  Hard to know what to prioritize sometimes, with so many things on my to-do list (and more coming at me...!).   

Feeling: Glad that February is over -- but quite aware that winter isn't, yet...! Looking forward to Little Great-Niece's FIRST birthday party this weekend!  :)  NOT looking forward to March break (it's the week of March 11th here) and the inevitable crowds of kids and parents everywhere -- a good week to hunker down at home...!  Exception:  the Monday of break week (March 11th), when we'll be looking after Little Great-Nephew for the day while his parents are at work and his grandparents are en route home from a holiday. :)  (They'll look after him for the rest of the week.) 

Monday, February 12, 2024

#Microblog Mondays: Odds & ends & lots of links!

(Another #MM post that's not so micro... but it's what I've got!)  

I haven't posted as much here lately as I often do. I can chalk it up, in part, to the usual mid-winter/February malaise. Aside from a few (too few) glorious days of sunshine & clear blue skies, it's been grey and blah outside lately.  And there just hasn't been a lot going on to write about. I've hardly been out of the house. (Planning a trip to the mall this week to remedy that!)  

I've also been feeling slightly overwhelmed by the volume of stuff coming at me every day. Nothing particularly important or heavy or consequential -- just trying to keep up with all the things I want and need and like to do -- and read. 

I've always been a voracious reader and consumer -- of books, of magazines, of newspapers -- of media generally, from the time I learned to read. Even when I was a kid, my parents and grandparents always got (and read) at least one newspaper daily (the one from the nearest city), sometimes two, when there was a daily local paper (and if there wasn't a daily, there was a weekly) -- plus, we tuned in to the news on TV at lunchtime, suppertime and later in the evening too (in the days before 24-hour news channels existed).  And every morning when I arrived at journalism school, there were stacks of of the local London Free Press and Globe & Mail waiting in our classroom/newsroom for us to read -- with regular news quizzes to ensure we were keeping up with current events. I've kept the habit of reading multiple daily newspapers (along with other reading material, of course) all through my adult life. 

These days, the news tends to come in a digital format. Just getting through my email inbox -- full of newsletters from various newspapers, magazines, Substacks, etc. -- takes forever some days. (I look forward to weekends, when the volume diminishes considerably.)  Plus there are blogs to read and comment on (something I haven't been very good at doing lately...!), social media accounts, message boards and other sites I follow regularly. I've slacked off considerably on keeping up with my Facebook & Instagram accounts -- which I suppose is not a bad thing in some ways (lol) -- but also leaves me with mild cases of both guilt and FOMO.  

Additionally, I've been checking my Ancestry account every morning to see what new DNA cousins have shown up overnight for me, my mom & dh. Checking the daily e-book bargains on Kobo. Juggling reading for the several book clubs & readalongs I belong to, plus squeezing in a few books from my own towering to-read piles now & then. Plus the usual household stuff, etc. 

On the other hand, all this reading lately means I have some really GREAT stuff to share with all of you here!  :)  
I suspect no one had the fertility journey that they thought they would have. There are surprise pregnancies. There are unimaginable losses. Life has no greater talent than that of disrupting our expectations.

In all of these circumstances, it is the women who are “childless by circumstance” that I think of the most. The women like me. There is such pain for those of us who wanted to become mothers yet did not. And there is no recognition of this type of loss in our culture.

We understand and honor the grief of miscarriages, stillborns, and other losses associated with our fertility. But we don’t have a social protocol to help us support a woman who is childless by circumstance. In fact, we don’t even have a cultural understanding of the very important difference between a woman who is childless and one who is childfree — our culture assumes any woman without children got there by choice.

We’re strangely unable to understand that many women struggle with the emotional and physical toll of infertility — that they perhaps wanted a child of their own very badly but could not have one. And apparently, at least so far as I can see, it’s incomprehensible that a fertile woman could end up without a child unless she chose that path.

Western imagination understands the fickle hand of fate when it comes to miscarriages and surprise pregnancies — but not when it comes to a woman who had a plan…a plan that just didn’t work out.

Those who don’t have children aren’t without stories — and equally complex stories, at that. If you have a uterus, you have stories. And someday, when the storyline of our fertility comes to an end, we feel drawn to open those worn pages again, flip through the familiar words and images, and maybe even share them with those around us.
  • This article from the Atlantic by a woman who has had three miscarriages and one full-term loss is gorgeous:  "I Don’t Know If I Can Call Myself a Mom."  (Subhead:  "I’ve had three miscarriages, seven reproductive surgeries, and one infant loss. I still don’t have a child.") Caveat: She & her husband are still trying to conceive. (Gift link.)  Sample passage: 
How do you confirm parenthood without proof? Without spit-up on your clothes, a diaper bag slung over your shoulder, or commiseration with fellow mothers?

But I did mother Lucy. Every decision I made for her—from the positive test to her last breath—was mothering. Not drinking booze or eating raw fish during my pregnancy was mothering. Reading parenting books and touring day cares was mothering. Practicing prenatal yoga and labor positions was mothering. Stroking her face while I held her languid body had to have been mothering.
    The ethics of fertility wellness and spirituality matters to me. You matter, we matter and we deserve ethical sensitivity, criticality and someone to redress the balance. We deserve far far better than being told we’re not breathing properly either and so of course we aren’t fertile.

    There is a particular feeling of futility and self blame that we can be left with alongside our negative pregnancy tests. And it’s never as loud as when we’ve bought into the suggestions, claims and promises that THIS is the thing that will get that positive test - paid for it, tried it and come away empty handed.

    You didn’t do it wrong.

  • I had mixed feelings about this article from the Guardian (so, caveat emptor...):  "‘At 45, I grieved the idea of motherhood. Then, by pure fluke, I was pregnant’." To her credit, the author -- who endured multiple miscarriages and two failed rounds of IVF -- is honest about the mixed feelings & emotions. (And the writing is beautiful.)  A couple of sample passages:  
In many ways it has been a strange tributary in the conversation most women have throughout their lives: why you don’t have children, why you do. Fertility is a part of a woman’s life that exists beyond herself, that is forever subject to public speculation and interrogation. “Questions,” as Rebecca Solnit put it, “that push you into the herd or nip at you for diverging from it.”

It has been stranger still to cross from one side to the other, as if handed, like a baton, between the divergent and the herd. At this stage in my life, I do not seem to fit entirely in either; I have missed the mothering years of my peers, and now I have absconded from my child-free fellowship.
and

I am wary of the false hope this kind of fertility story might give: woman gives up trying to have a baby, then duly falls pregnant – as if the very act of wanting something is the very thing that might prevent it. I do not want this to seem like a cautionary tale of female desire. Nor was there any great trick – I cannot attribute my pregnancy to a particular vitamin supplement, acupuncturist, health regime. I have no advice. It was luck, pure fluke.

It was also not without complexity. I was of course elated to be pregnant, but I had spent a good two years grieving the idea of motherhood and imagining a different kind of life for myself. Now I was doubling back, revisiting the hopes of my younger self.
  • Not ALI-related (at least, not obviously so...), but...:  I don't know if those of you outside of Canada know who Brittlestar is:  his real name is Stewart Reynolds, and he's a comedian, corporate spokesperson and wry social media commentator/content creator, among other things. He also has a Substack (who doesn't these days, right?), and I thought he made a great point recently, explaining "Here's why some people have gone crazy." 
    • (Personally, I think politics and world events have always had an impact on us all -- it's just that most people don't pay attention or make the connection until it becomes blatantly obvious and too difficult to ignore, as it did during the pandemic -- just as most people will offer up "thoughts and prayers" when a tragedy happens, secure in the knowledge that such a thing would never happen to THEM...)(until it inevitably does, of course...!).   
  • If you've been a reader here for a while, you'll know of my longstanding admiration for the Maynard women -- mother Fredelle, and her daughters Rona and Joyce -- all successful writers. I've followed both Rona & Joyce on social media for years, and Rona is now expanding on her wonderful Facebook posts in a Substack called "Amazement Seeker." You MUST read today's post -- "Voice Lesson from a Literary Warrior" -- if only for that opening paragraph, which left me slack-jawed with envy (oh, to be a fly on the wall of THAT gathering...!).  But I'm betting you'll stick around for the whole thing. ;)  How about this paragraph, which will speak to bloggers everywhere?  
Not every revolution strikes at a foe. For a woman who writes, the first barricade is within. To claim what you know, and tell it in your own voice, is a revolutionary act that not only remaps your emotional world but clears a path for others... If my joys, sorrows and amusements mattered, then so did my reader’s.

  • The CBC had a story this weekend about the declining number of cousins that children today are growing up with, and the important role they can play in families. 
    • This is certainly something I've noticed in my own experience, and in dh's family too. My mom had just one brother and he had just two kids (my first cousins) -- but on my dad's side of the family, I have something like 35?? first cousins & half-cousins. Dh has a similar amount from his mom & dad's families combined. But our nephews have just one (living) cousin (their mom's brother's daughter).  Little Great-Nephew has just one first cousin -- Little Great-Niece -- and it's likely to stay that way.  Little Great-Niece has two other cousins on her mom's side of her family.  
You can find more of this week's #MicroblogMondays posts here

Saturday, February 4, 2023

"Wintering" by Katherine May

"Wintering: The Power of Rest and Retreat in Difficult Times" by Katherine May has been on my bookshelf for a while now. I finally cracked it open a few days ago, at the beginning of February, my least favourite month, and the beginning of a particularly brutal cold snap, following endless weeks of dark, gloomy grey skies.  

It's not a long book (my hardcover copy is 242 pages), but there's a lot to absorb and think about here. Its publication in February 2020 coincided with the beginning of the COVID-19 pandemic, and it's not hard to see why it became a bestseller at this particular time in history:  May's personal story of living through a difficult period in her life is intertwined with her gentle observations and meditations on winter (the season) and "wintering" -- which she describes as: 

...a season in the cold. It is a fallow period in life when you’re cut off from the world, feeling rejected, sidelined, blocked from progress, or cast into the role of an outsider. Perhaps it results from an illness or a life event such as a bereavement or the birth of a child; perhaps it comes from a humiliation or failure. Perhaps you’re in a period of transition and have temporarily fallen between two worlds. Some wintering creep upon us more slowly, accompanying the protracted death of a relationship, the gradual ratcheting up of caring responsibilities as our parents age, the drip-drip-drip of lost confidence. Some are appallingly sudden, like discovering one day that your skills are considered obsolete, the company you worked for has gone bankrupt, or your partner is in love with someone new. However, it arrives, wintering is usually involuntary, lonely, and deeply painful.

Among other things, May writes about basking in mineral pools and saunas in Iceland, attending a St. Lucia service at a Swedish church, spending the winter solstice at Stonehenge, watching the aurora borealis (northern lights) in Norway, taking a New Year's Day plunge in the sea, and sending her son outside to play in the snow after a rare snowfall (she says she's never experienced a white Christmas -- !!! -- come to Manitoba, Katherine!! -- I can only recall two Christmases there where there WASN'T any snow cover, or at least not much!). 

This is a wise and beautifully written book, and reading it, during one of the coldest and gloomiest times of the year -- both weather-wise and heart-wise (and this year especially) -- was a balm for the soul (MY soul, anyway!). I don't often re-read books these days, but I can see myself reading this one again in the future. It's divided into sections, one for each month from September through March, and it would be interesting and easy to read one section per month, at the proper times.  :)  

I'm also looking forward to reading May's next book, which is coming out at the end of this month: "Enchantment: Awakening Wonder in an Anxious Age." 

ALI note/content warning: The section on January begins with the story of May's infertility diagnosis, followed by a surprise pregnancy -- just before she was to start IVF treatment (of course!).  She also mentions her son at different points in the book. 

5 stars on Goodreads. 

This was Book #7 read to date in 2023 (and Book #1 finished in February), bringing me to 16% (!) of my 2023 Goodreads Reading Challenge goal of 45 books. I am (for the moment, anyway...!) 3 books ahead of schedule. :)  You can find reviews of all my books read to date in 2023 tagged as "2023 books."  

Tuesday, March 1, 2022

Right now

Right now...* 

*(an occasional (mostly monthly) meme, alternating from time to time with "The Current"). (Explanation of how this started & my inspirations in my first "Right now" post, here. Also my first "The Current" post, here.)

Pandemic diary/update:  February was Month #23 going on #24 -- i.e., almost two full years -- of living with the COVID-19 pandemic. 

By the end of January/beginning of February, the Omicron variant-fuelled surge that began in mid-December (and brought some of the highest numbers of new cases, hospitalizations and deaths of the entire pandemic) was beginning to subside. On Feb. 1st, Ontario's science table said that wastewater testing suggested that as many as 4 million people came down with an Omicron-related case of covid in December and January, with the virus peak around Jan 4, and peak cases around Jan. 11. (To put that figure in perspective, Ontario's population is not quite 15 million people. In other words, up to one-quarter of Ontarians got sick with covid over a two-month period. That's a LOT.)  

Happily, the numbers continued to decline during February. UNhappily, they still remain too high for comfort. And recent wastewater analysis has shown early signs of a resurgence of the viral load(I've used numbers from both CBC News's pandemic tracker for Ontario and The Toronto Star, which may differ slightly, albeit not substantially. Feb. 28th was a Monday, and not all hospitals report data to the province early in the week.)
  • There were 2,622 new cases reported in Ontario on Feb. 1st, and 1,315 on Feb. 28th. The seven-day average on Feb. 28th was 1,884.6. PCR testing has been dramatically restricted since January, and so these numbers cannot be considered an accurate assessment of how widespread COVID-19 is right now.
  • Positivity rates declined over the course of the month, from 16.2% on Feb. 1st to 8.9% on Feb. 28th. The 7-day average on Feb. 28th was 9.4% (down 1.5%).  
  • During February, hospitalizations declined from 3,091 on Feb. 1st to 849 on Feb. 28th, down 24.5% from the previous week. 
  • There were 568 ICU beds filled on Feb. 1st, and 279 on Feb. 28th, down 12.8% from the previous week.  
  • There were 60 deaths reported on Feb. 1st and a peak of 75 on Feb. 3rd. There were 3 on Feb. 28th, with a seven-day average of 22. 
As of Feb. 28th, nearing the two-year mark of the pandemic (as officially declared by the WHO on March 11th, 2020), Ontario has logged 1,102,011 cases of covid and more than 12,433 deaths. For Canada as a whole, those numbers are 3,269,546 and 36,377, respectively. 

As of yesterday, 89.7% of Ontarians have had at least one shot and 85.7% are fully vaccinated (including those aged 5 & under, who are not yet eligible). Canada-wide, 81.2% of people are fully vaccinated. ("Fully vaccinated" = two doses, although some are lobbying to change that definition to include boosters/third doses.) 

Indoor public venues (including dine-in restaurants, bars, gyms and movie theatres) -- which closed (again) in early January, as Omicron surged -- reopened on Jan. 31st at 50% capacity.  At that time, it was announced that further capacity increases were planned for Feb. 21st, that all capacity limits on indoor spaces would be lifted on March 14th (assuming things continued to go well) -- but also that proof of vaccination and masking requirements would remain in place for the foreseeable future. 

On Feb. 14th (Valentine's Day), the premier announced that Ontario would begin easing capacity restrictions a few days later, on Feb. 17th.  Following in the footsteps of several other provinces, ALL capacity restrictions AND vaccine passport requirements were lifted as of TODAY (March 1st, two weeks earlier than planned). Mask mandates remain, for now, but will also likely be lifted very soon -- possibly as soon as March 14th -- just in time for Ontario schools' spring break. (Do you think it's a coincidence that we have a provincial election coming up on June 2nd?)  

Quite frankly, I am not optimistic. Every other time the government has moved to rapidly reduce restrictions in the past, it's come back (rapidly) to bite us all in the you-know-where -- and even then, the numbers, when restrictions were loosened, were generally far lower than they are right now. Ontario is one of the few places that has *never* removed its mask mandate since it was implemented in the summer of 2020. That we have done as well as we have is, I think, at least partly because of that. 

(Yes, vaccination rates are higher now, and the risk of severe illness subsequently lower -- but I still don't want to get sick. There's still too much we don't know about covid and its long-term effects.  As I saw someone post on Twitter, who knew, when our moms were taking us to chicken pox parties back in the 1950s & 60s, that so many of us would wind up with shingles 40-50 years later??)  

(For the record, my mom did NOT take us to a chicken pox party. But I had the chicken pox, as most kids did back then, before chicken pox vaccines -- and I came down with shingles shortly after my 40th birthday. Fortunately, a mild case that was caught early.  I wrote about that incident here some years after the fact, here and here.) 

(Anyway -- I digress.)   

As Ryan Imgrund, a biostatistician I follow on Twitter, pointed out in a Feb. 25th tweet, "One year ago, with 66000 tests conducted, Ontario announced just 1007 cases. Today, we are seeing 2400+ cases off a pathetic 21000 tests. Only those completely ignorant of data would contemplate removing masking at this time."  

But, hey, here we are... 

Needless to say, dh & I don't plan on changing our personal pandemic practices anytime soon, not until the numbers improve a whole lot more -- and then remain stable for quite a while. I am pretty sure that, at the very least, we will keep wearing our masks in public indoor settings, long after the government says they are no longer required. I was thinking that once the weather got warmer and patios reopened we MIGHT venture out to dine on one. We haven't been to a restaurant (indoors or out), other than to pick up takeout, since early March 2020. No way am I doing that if vaccine passports and masks are no longer required and there are no capacity limits -- not unless and until the numbers improve substantially. 

In last month's "Right now" post, I wrote about the protests/occupation in Ottawa. To make a very long, complicated story short, the federal government (briefly) implemented the Emergencies Act -- after almost four weeks of inaction from both the local police and the province, during which the locals endured overwhelming noise, loss of business and threats to their personal safety. Over the weekend of Feb. 19th, police officers brought in from all over Ontario and Quebec gradually cleared the protesters out of the downtown core, arresting almost 200 of them, including several of the most prominent leaders, and towing scores of trucks and cars away. Vehicle windows were smashed to gain access to them. pepper spray was used, and one woman was injured and hospitalized after a too-close encounter with a police horse -- but generally speaking, the consensus has been that the police used admirable restraint. (See this Twitter thread by reporter Justin Ling.) Other protests/blockades at various points along the U.S./Canada border (including one in the small town on the Manitoba/Minnesota/North Dakota border where I was born) have mostly been cleared as well.  There are still protesters camped out in small communities around Ottawa, plotting their next moves... 

One reason why the police proceeded with such extreme caution:  an estimated 20-25% of the trucks and other vehicles clogging the streets of downtown Ottawa contained CHILDREN. (I am willing to bet that at least some of the parents who had kids camping out with them for more than three weeks -- in bitterly cold winter weather -- were the same ones complaining that their children needed to be in school during peak covid periods.) These children were effectively -- and sometimes quite literally -- being used as human shields. In some cases, parents actually put their children between themselves and the lines of advancing police officers.  As dh remarked, "And THESE are the people who get to have kids?!"   

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On the personal pandemic front:  On top of dh's weekly trips to the supermarket for groceries and for occasional takeout lunches & dinners (fewer than usual recently, because of my gallstone issues): 
  • We spent time with Little Great-Nephew at BIL & SIL's (4 visits). 
  • We returned to the local mega-bookstore on Feb. 10th (for the first time since before Christmas) to pick up some Valentines for LGN & the Little Princesses. 
  • I had a visit with my family doctor on Feb. 16th to discuss changing where I get my mammograms done (I'm due for another one  -- the last one was two years ago, just before covid hit...!).  I also wound up with referrals for a colonoscopy and will be getting one for a surgeon re: my gallbladder as well. (Yikes!)   
  • Dh went over to Younger Nephew's townhouse nearby on Feb. 19th to help him, his father-in-law and BIL move some appliances. He/we hadn't seen BIL since Jan. 2nd, when he picked us up from the airport and dropped us off at our condo, after visiting my parents, and it had been longer than that since we'd seen either of the nephews &/or their wives. :(  Partly being covid-cautious, partly crappy winter weather/hibernation!  
  • We drove with BIL & SIL last Saturday (Feb. 26th) to Older Nephew's house for dinner, where we got to spend more time with Little Great-Nephew -- AND the dog, whom we hadn't seen since LGN's birthday party, back in mid-November!  (I miss him!) 
  • And dh took BIL to a local hospital for a diagnostic procedure yesterday morning (Feb. 28th).   
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Also right now:  

Reading: I finished 6 books in February (all reviewed on this blog, as well as Goodreads, & tagged  "2022 books"). All really good (4 & 5 star reads), too.  Not bad, especially for a short month!:  
This brings me to 11 books read so far in 2022 -- 24% of my 2022 Goodreads Reading Challenge goal of 45 books.  I am (for the moment, anyway) 4 books ahead of schedule. :)

Current read(s): 
Coming up: 

(Most of my book groups have their next reads plotted out for a few months in advance -- and this is a great place for me to keep track of what I should read next, lol.) 
Also: within the private online Gateway Women community, we've formed a group to discuss Jody Day's book, "Living the Life Unexpected," one chapter per month, in a live Zoom call. (There are actually two groups -- one that's more conducive to UK/European/Australasian time zones, and one for North Americans.) Our second call was Sunday afternoon. Completing all 12 chapters will take us a full year.  If/when we complete the full 12 chapters, I'll count it as another re-read. :)  

A few recently purchased titles (in digital format, mostly discounted or purchased with points):   
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Watching:  Season 8 of "Finding Your Roots" on PBS.  Always fascinating!  

The Winter Olympics from Beijing, and the figure skating in particular -- which involved staying up well past my bedtime on some days (12:30 a.m.-ish), and/or getting up at the crack of dawn (5-6 a.m.) on others. 

"LBJ: Triumph and Tragedy," an interesting four-part series about U.S. President Lyndon Baines Johnson, on CNN over the long weekend (President's Day in the U.S.). 

Listening: To the most recent episode of "The Full Stop" podcast. 

Eating/Drinking:  Bearpaws, soft cookies that come in a variety of flavours. SIL buys them as treats for Little Great-Nephew, which is how we first tasted them.  ;)  A nice snack to have with my tea in the afternoon, and while they're not without calories/sugar/fat, they're not as bad as the cookies I was getting from the supermarket bakery. 

Smelling:  The skunky aroma of cannabis (again)(eyeroll), wafting through the cracks in the door of our unit yesterday morning at 7:30 a.m., as I sat in the armchair, WITH the diffuser going!  (An interesting combination of scents...!)  Dh had taken BIL to the hospital for a diagnostic test (as mentioned above), and when I texted him about it, he responded that he smelled it in the hallway (through his mask) when he left our unit around 6 a.m. too. I mean, seriously??  Partying on Saturday night is one thing, but 6 and 7:30 a.m.??! 

Buying (besides books, lol):  Not a lot. We haven't been in any stores other than the supermarket this month, other than one visit to the drugstore and one to the bookstore. (Since covid began, we've been to a mall exactly twice -- and that's just within the past 7 months, and only for about an hour each time. Masks were required.) 

I bought some more sterling silver jewelry online (earrings from a flash sale on Instagram Stories... you can never have too many pairs of earrings, right?).  

The box of 5 rapid tests I ordered back on Jan. 3rd FINALLY arrived on Feb. 23rd!!  (Dh happened to be in the right place at the right time on Feb. 10th, when boxes of free tests were being handed out at the drugstore where he was picking up a prescription, and got another box of 5 then. SIL has also promised to give us a box of 5 when her own order comes in, to pay us back after we took our only box of tests over to her in early January, when she wasn't feeling well -- she tested negative.) 

Wearing: A cardigan on top of my long-sleeved T-shirts, most days, as well as both socks and slippers on my feet. It's been cold! and our floors are FREEZING!   

Trying:  Last month, I wrote "To keep busy and upbeat despite the depressing news and the cold."  I guess I could write the same this month too -- the news has been even more depressing and the weather hasn't been much better...!   

Wanting: I can't think of anything I really want, at least, anything that would be realistic. I've often answered this prompt "an end to this pandemic" and while it's not original, it's probably the one thing that would make any other "wants" easier...!    

Enjoying: Seeing the numbers on the scale going down. I try not to weigh myself too often (so that I don't obsess over what I see there) -- generally once a month at the beginning or end of the month. I am almost 15 (!) pounds lighter than I was at my heaviest (early last fall). I lost most of that weight before Christmas, when I was having so many issues with my gallstones -- but I'm down about three pounds since the new year too. 

It was a bit of a shock to realize I'd lost that much -- but I felt better when I realized it's happened over several months -- it didn't happen overnight. (I guess I'm so used to watching the numbers go up and up in recent years that to see them go down -- and keep going down -- is kind of unsettling in a way...!) My diet has been somewhat less restricted than it was before Christmas, but I haven't completely deprived myself either. I've just been trying to use less sugar and fat, eat smaller portions (trying to remind myself that -- despite my mother's admonishments to me when I was a kid -- it's okay NOT to clean my plate!) and drink lots of water. Less greasy takeout on Saturday nights too. My face looks slightly thinner, my jeans fit a little better and my ankles are not as puffy as they can be sometimes. My gallstones generally behaved themselves this month, too. Woohoo!!  

Noticing:  One of our neighbours in the townhouse development behind our building hung a banner in the colours of the Ukrainian flag outside, shortly after Russia invaded Ukraine. See my #MicroblogMondays post!  

Wondering:  What's going in Little Great-Nephew's head sometimes...??  He's a bright little guy (I know, I'm obviously biased...!), and it's fun to see the wheels turning, as he tries to figure things out for himself. His vocabulary is expanding -- he's starting to form simple sentences -- and his speech is getting clearer. (It would be clearer still if he didn't have a soother in his mouth constantly, lol.  But it's all part of the cuteness...!)   

Prioritizing: Getting to bed at a decent hour again, now that the Olympics are over...! (And trying to get there a little bit before I want to turn out the lights, so I can read for a while too... I find that reading at bedtime is a great way to help get through some more pages/chapters/books!) 

Waiting: To see what happens, now that most public health measures re: covid are being lifted...! 

Hoping:  That the prep for my colonoscopy (later this month) is less fraught than it was 10+ years ago...!  (And that being post-menopausal now will help  that regard...!) 

Appreciating: My country. Despite its shortcomings (and I know there are some), I know how very, VERY fortunate I am to live here! and I would not want to live anywhere else. 

Loving: The new sweaters I bought from Cleo (online, on sale) -- this one -- with square necklines, in rich jewel tones that look great on me. :)  I don't really NEED any new sweaters -- heaven knows we haven't been going anywhere that would require getting out of our yoga/PJ pants & T-shirts -- but it was a boost to my spirits to be able to buy something new & pretty. :) (And I did wear one of the sweaters to Older Nephew's house on Saturday.)  

Feeling: Apprehensive about the situation in Ukraine. :(  About those remaining protesters, lurking on private properties outside of Ottawa. And about covid restrictions being lifted. 

Also: Restless & envious. I see photos of friends & family in the U.S. (and not even in California or Florida -- okay, maybe not the ones in Minnesota, lol...!) in shorts &/or shirtsleeves, talking about their tulips poking up and saying, "Spring is (almost) here!!"  etc.  Ummm, no. Not here. Not yet. We're nowhere near being able to do any of that (with or without covid restrictions...!).  You all know I am not fond of November (lol), but February is actually my least favourite month, even if it is the shortest (the one point in its favour...!).  Grey, cold, snowy, after several months of the same already. Between the weather & covid, it feels like the best years of my retirement are swiftly passing me by. Bah humbug.    :(  

On to March!